Living on a prayer, a few bucks and a humbled soul

A budget conscious girl I may describe myself now. Armed with luxurious purchases which are more or less on impulse. With a lil encouragement from my beloved sis with the sign card loh~. Recent purchases had thrown my budget way off. As of end 2007, I had meant to be cautious with how I spend and vowed to start saving for rainy days but I was so close, so close to fulfilling my mission.  I had been more thrifty and more cautious with how I budget my spending but old habit never die, the “evil” side of me had gotten the best of me and I had in a span of 3 months in a row bought expensive item. Now I am repaying what I had paid using the ever so trusted visa cards. I do not want to snow ball any debts and willed to pay every cent.  I had to struggle through August which I am seeing the end and it had been so tough, so suffocating for not having the normal spending power. I am yet to climb a tougher mountain for Sep.  My perspective had changed this month of Aug and I had been humbled to not to make the same mistake again.  I know that I can make it through when I did a mental calculation before I sign those damn card but mental calculation vs reality…..

 

IT WAS TOUGH!

 

I prayed and thank the Lord for each day that I had a few dollars to spend for my meals. I am thankful for my survival after my crazy purchases. I had learned not to spend on credits. I also see 1 of my purchases is equivalent to approx 332 decent meals I am having now on my pathetic budget.

 

I hope I had finally learned my lesson and blog’ing this is to remind myself!

What goes around, comes around

Sometimes in life, you encounter nasty people. Worst are those who pretend to be real nice to you but had always been backstabbing you whenever possible.  There are those who are loud mouth and you knew is the bitch but most wouldn’t want to mess with her to make your own life miserable. I had the honour of meeting such people in my work life. To some who believe Karma, yes, they do get it.  For those who trust in the Lord will know even better what is going on and how we are shield and protected against their evil plan.  

 

I just want to encourage those who had met such people and is really upset by what they had done to you. Trust in the Lord and He will open your eyes to see. It doesn’t matter if you had been wrong or had to take the rap of bad things you had not done.  Justice will be on your side. Things will be made right no matter how grim things seems to be now. The Lord will remove the oppressor in a way that you can’t imagine. Even lil petty things they did, they will reap what they sow.  So will you.  If you sow goodness, you will reap goodness. Do not do evil like the evil doers. Vengeance will be the Lord for those who had persecuted you.   

Just talk

Was'nt feeling well, down with flu and conjunctivitis. I already had the symptom last week and had been to the company's dr. Told the dr that my eye is very uncomfy and puffy. Felt like a ton weighing down from my eye to my cheek. She simply say I have dry eye and gave me hypo tears drop. Didnt like this "fastfood" chain doctor, esp this current dr which is new at this branch. She took the longest time to see 7 patients. I waited for almost 1.5hrs. Anyway... don't understand why they don't listen or they simply think that every patient that drop by their clinic is to get MC. Oh well, I went to the clinic at around 3pm.. that's a bit "early" to try to get sick leave isn't it?

That is just the eye cooking up some real nasty bacteria and yesterday, I woke up with swollen eyes. I hardly could see my eyes so to say. When I went to the clinic near my place, the dr say my eye is very red and ask if had rub my eyes. Told him I didnt. Thereafter, when he is writing out the Rx, he mumble again to remind me not to rub my eyes. For goodness sake, I am not a kid and had to lie abt if I did rub my eyes or not. I didtnt even realised my eye is red cause I can hardly see my eyes this morning ;p. Being cheeky... I ask the dr if it does make a diff in diagnosis if I did rub my eye vs didnt rub my eye. hahahaha.

I am Chinese Singaporean

I am Singaporean and I am Chinese too.  Although we are not native Chinese but can't deny the fact that I am a yellow skin Chinese. Maybe I can say I am Asian but my ancestor, after all are native Chinese that had come to Singapore.  There are lots of native Chinese in the early days migrate to Thailand, Vietnam, Indonesia etc. I don't know why but I dislike hearing another yellow skin person saying bad things about China or rolling their eyes when a product is made in China.  

 

To be fair, every country have nice people and the not so nice people. I also heard about how some Singaporean misbehave overseas and being called Kiasu etc. I had learnt history of China from school and also from dad who likes to watch documentary.  Chinese had gone through lots of hardship from all the past turmoil. They had not given up and continue to persevere. What they had accomplished today is not by sheer luck but hard work.  Sad to say, there are always black sheep like what you see in one of my earlier post… dog butchers!  Also the recent case where some evil business man exported contaminated wheat gluten for pet food manufacturer in USA and caused the death of many pets.  There are also evil business man that made fake milk powder, meat products etc. Perhaps these black sheep had tainted the reputations of China.  

 

Despite these, there are still some good we see. Not to forget, as the Chinese teaching had influence many great man. 从古至今是依然传颂的美德，忠孝礼仪。这四个字足以证明华人是如何注重品行。

Nightmare

What do you consider as nightmare?  Some have scary dream of ghost, bad encounter or being chase by unknown “xxxxx”.  It is now the Hungry Ghost Festival (from 1st – 30th Aug) I had a nightmare last night, not of any of the above kind of dream but dreamt that my Fluffy ran onto the road near the bus-stop and almost hit by coming traffic.  The dream repeated twice!!! It is very disturbing and scary for me to dream twice.  It is almost like it happen once in the dream that Fluffy was at the bus-stop with me but not leashed.  She ran onto the road and I dash onto the road to get her.  Then supposedly another time at the bus-stop on a different day, it happen again.  I didn’t learn my lesson and didn’t leash her the 2^nd time.

 

Maybe recently too many friend’s dog had went to the rainbow bridge and it had affected me.  I remember that I had indeed made such a mistake few years ago when I 1^st went to view Oreo for adoption.  Fluffy did walk quickly, I won’t say she run towards the main road.  I didn’t dare chase, afraid that she will run even faster and dashed onto the road.  Lucky for us all, she step onto the road and froze at the corner of the curb. To her, the oncoming cars and buses are huge huge monster. I quickly picked her up…or was it K that pick her up?  I don’t remember.  I was in shock then.  The dream I had last night seems to repeat this event tho with a different “story”.

 

I do not know how…. How I will be able to deal with losing Fluffy if the day comes.  Oh well, the 2^nd wk she was brought home I thought she might have sneak out the house had already brought thunder storm to my eyes.  I cannot imagine……..

发发唠骚

I felt so wronged and misunderstood last wk.  Anyway, I got over it over the wkend as I usually will after a day or 2.  

 

I had treated a fren well and this fren does not reciprocate. This fren太极小姐  is quite possessive in some way and I dislike it. I can only say sticky!!!

我掏心交朋友却换来一肚子委屈。第三者也难理解我怎么对待之而如何被对待。发发唠骚却被问是否我如何对待那位朋友所以他这样。算了，自己心里明白就好。他只对他的同胞好些。我只是他闲来无聊一起去吃饭的"朋友"。他有饭局没我份。我有饭局没叫上他，他肯定脸黑过木炭。还有一大堆他说了伤人心的话，长篇大论我又不怎么能打中文，又不想太极小姐能看懂， 只能写这些了。

 

怎能事事皆如人意？但求问心无愧。

 

Eve's Goodbye~ "office" lunch

Other than the poor rigid service at lerk thai, we had quite a fun time at lunch.

Today, one of the younger colleague’s last day, the baby in our office. (she is going to protest if I say she is a baby). We arrange to have lunch at Lerk Thai near our office. To beat the crowd and to make sure we have seats, some of the colleague walk over to the restaurant 1st. There were 9 of us and the restaurant cannot set a table for 9. The staff told my colleague that they are too busy to help re-arrange the table. When we reach there, we asked the same thing and this time we were told “THIS IS OUR RESTAURANT POLICY THAT WE CANNOT JOIN THE TABLES”. Oh well, this will be the last time we gonna be eating there. We had to split into 2 table not next to each other but more like like a “T” as in one table adjacent to another.

To make situation worst, we tasted the food and realized it was serve “cold”. When we ask them to change the food as it is cold, they cleared all the bowls of red beef curry from our desk and later returning with the same beef red curry reheated. How on earth we know whose curry is it with each of us already tasted our own food. We had to speak to the manager and she explained that she isn’t aware how the kitchen staff could pour the beef back into the wok to reheat them. I told her how unhygienic this is to pour 4 bowls of red beef curry we had each tasted back into the wok to reheat them and them serve them to us again when all 4 of our saliva all mix into one wok and then pour out in 4 bowls again.

Other than the rigid, cant re-arrange table, this cold food and their “way” of re-heating the food had certainly put me off. Oh well, I won’t go to this restaurant again but the incident had not dampened our spirit. We celebrate the last day of Evelyn…. Ya… we are so happy that she is leaving. (I am kidding). We are happy to send her off to pursue better future.

Another Farewell and more to come....

This picture was taken last year at our company’s D & D. Already 1 out of the pix had left the company and another 2 to go. Colleagues are people you meet each day for about 8 hrs, 5 times a week.  Almost quite the same as when you 1^st became good friend with your classmate in Pri and Sec School. Friends are made but can they withstand time?  Maybe in a few years, we can testify if we are still in touch. Time will tell.

 

All the best to you my friend and your future endeavor.

 

*I wish to hear that too…. Hahhahaha”